Darn, I missed a writing day! But I did do a podcast. So now I must catch up.

This marketing/sales course is rather challenging. Yesterday morning, I was completely confused. Generally, I’m pretty logical but for some reason had a difficult time getting my head around the flow of the funnels. I thought I had it nailed, but apparently not.

But I have to give myself credit. I didn’t throw in the towel and took a breather, asked for help on the community site, and my confusion was dispelled by the responses from some of the other people also in the challenge. I was able to move on but I still have so much work to do on it.

Asking for help never comes easy to me. Being so independent, I always believed — and more often than not in the past — I had to do everything myself. Because I didn’t want people to know, or think that I was dumb or incompetent. Those feelings come from way back when I was little and was “encouraged” to be first in class, to be the fastest swimmer, be the best at everything I did. Not “do my best,” but “be THE best,” which I now know has really influenced how I have lived my life. Scary shit.

But this course is somehow — and I can’t put my finger on it — allowing me the freedom to not be perfect, to just get the damn thing done. And also, it’s allowing me to be vulnerable and more open, probably because the first part of this was writing my “origin” story and putting it out there. Maybe this is the start of writing a memoir!

So today, I have to overcome another challenge. I need to record a “selfie video” to introduce the product I am promoting. I’m so used to being on the working side of the camera and I just don’t feel comfortable being the subject. I’ll have to put on makeup and the whole thing! But I will do it, and it will be very amateurish as video hasn’t been my thing. Guess I am learning new skills!

Cheers.

p.s. The photos I use more often than not have no relevance to the subject matter — I just like them — and they are all my own.